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Have a really advance Father's Day Celebration earlier on and today shall update!

bought daddy and mummy to JP swensen and nom nom!

because it's around the peak hours and thus, lot's of people queue-ing up.

Food were delivered rather slow but the staff were all so kind.

=)

got this from fairprice.

I guess most of them seen this makeup remover wet tissue ads on tv.

=)

I've tried and it's really good.

That's me and this 2 pics marks an end of this entry and will blog on my iphone and cool apps on next entry.

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Sometimes I act like nothing is wrong because I wanted to maintain the current situation.

Because I treasured the time I have with u so I would usually meet u earlier.

I willing to buy lots of clothings not just because I love to shop,

but also wish that u would praise me "pretty" one fine day.

I've always love to quarrel with u on tiny things because I wanted ur attention badly.

I'm not happy when u went out with girls because that's how I show u how much u meant for me.

Everytime I cried it would always be u, the reason.

Those hurtful words u said when u're not happy always appear in my mind because to me,

that's what your heart really says.

I still remembered u said how selfish I am for not giving a thought for u.

U opened ur bdae chalet and refuse to let me go because u said I cannot socialize with ur friends.

U still contact with that particular ex girlfriend who calls me a bitch.

I remembered that night at genting u told me that nightmare that I always hope it didn't happen,

because before u told me I trusted u wholeheartedly.

When I told u I feel in secure u would always reply "you think too much",

but I didn't really think because that's how u make me feel.

When I asked u why did you love me?

U would reply "because you're stupid" .

I remember u told me that you're tired of me during one of the quarrel we had last year.

I feel so upset that I literally crying while on the way to work,

and during work,

which make bunny so worried that she drop by after school just to check if I'm ok.

That's the first time I feel so heartbroken and down.

I remembered after that sms I never send u anymore messages until u messaged me again.

I remembered how stupid I am just to wait for u to finish ur warcraft game from maybe 8pm to 5am.

I would just sit on the sofa and look at u playing.

The funniest part is I did this for about 5 years.

I would always call u "laogong" everytime I see you.

and I remembered u told me don't call u that infront your friend cause u will feel "paiseh".

I was quite hurt and angry,

because u are the one who wants me to call u that.

But if u realize something,

I actually call u "laogong" lesser,

because it would usually only appear in smses.

I sms u and call u lesser,

I cry lesser,

I didn't sit on the sofa and wait for u anymore

because I would rather spend the time doing my own stuff,

we quarrel lesser,

because we talk lesser.

I've no longer care who u contact and who u go out with,

because I would do the same thing like u did.

I no longer asking u stupid question because I know,

u would make a big turn to tell me how stupid I am.

Maybe I am really stupid,

because I am still holding on to u.

Though there's already so much hurt done.

But on a happier note:

I still love u.

But not "THIS" much anymore.

This are the stuff that stuck in my mouth because I don't have the courage to tell u.

Till not, still couldn't tell u.

All I wish is u, treat me nicely instead of beating me all the time.

(not those hitting and kicking kinda abuse but just playful beating me)

I'm a girl too, I wish to be treated like a girl and if can,

I would really wish to be like a normal girlfriend,

hug me when u see me.

or say sweet stuff when I feeling down.

U know, u never treat me like this before?

The way u treat me right now is more like a wife u have married for a long long time.

I cannot imagine the image of us after marriage.

I think by that time, it's no longer love anymore.

This is not a breakup entry or whatsoever,

I am just trying to express my feelings.

Anyway, he won't be reading this also because he doesn't even read my blog.

PS: The actual date of this entry is 12/06/10

I don't want it to appear in the top part of the entry because this entry isn't meant to be read.